Day One *Update*

So, my allergies have randomly decided I have to make an effort to breathe tonight. Not sure what from, but my chest is in a lot of pain because of it. Took a Benydril a few minutes ago, so hopefully it calms down soon. Along with that my stomach is cramped up and, without going TMI, I've been in and out of the bathroom a few times in the last two hours. So, called in sick to work. Really can't be doing that much more, but I'm super depressed as well, so yea.

I'm doing a fast tonight though. I made a big bowl of couscous with some chopped red onion, roasted red pepper dressing, and some cheese and finished it about a half hour ago. I'm only fasting for 24hrs, as I know my body can't really handle longer times anyway. Roommates are gone right now to a friend's, but supposedly coming home soon. I plan on laying on the being sick thing a little bit to just chill up here and ignore them for the night and just relax. I'm still really tired though, so have to be careful and not fall back to sleep. I plan on playing some facebook apps and catching up on some, if not the rest, of season 2 Walking Dead anyway.
Tomorrow I'm gunna start my plan though, except I have no nectarines so it'll be a couple bananas and yogurt before leaving for work. For tonight, I'm sticking to water, diet pop, and maybe one can of this carbonated fruit juice (60cals per can), but definitely a lot of water, as I'm dehydrated.

I want to thank everyone who's Following me. I was hesitant jumping from Xanga to Blogger, but you've definitely made it easier for me, and I hope I can give as much support as you all give me. Might update later tonight. Meant to do my "first" weigh in and measurements, but completely forgot and am so bloated and ick, wouldn't be proper anyway. Possibly tomorrow night if I get up early enough.

4:45AM
Well, still going strong on my fast. I'm actually surprising myself a bit as I'm quite hungry. I'm on my second can of diet pop, had one can of the sparkling fruit juice stuff (60cals) and had a bout a bottle total of water. Need to be having more water, but it's warm, so makes it harder for me to drink. I think, if I can afford it, I'm gunna start making this detox lemonade stuff I did before. It's technically this "well known" detox, but I can't stand even a tiny pinch of the cayenne pepper in it, so just do it as a sort of lemonade detox. All it is is like 2tbsp lemon juice (and I mean the concentrated stuff) and one tbsp of REAL maple syrup (not that cheap table syrup shit, the expensive pure stuff lol) and then about 250ml of water, though I usually do a 'double' batch and just use a plastic water bottle. I still have a full bottle of lemon juice, just need a new thing of maple syrup, which of course is the expensive part -_- We shall see how crappy this coming pay check is though and go from there.

So, not sure where the allergy attack cropped up from before, but it's been gone since about a half hour after I took the meds. Hopefully it doesn't pop up while I'm trying to sleep again today. My stomach is still blah, but a lot better without any food in it really. I was all worried with moving in with J and K (I've been friends with K forever, J is her husband) that fasting and cutting cals would be so much harder as she kind of knows of my ED, or at least suspects of things. Seems this night shift helps a ton since most nights when I work I'm gone or getting ready when they have supper and with her being pregnant they don't do much for big meals now and then when I do eat it's not a meal time so snacking on small stuff isn't questioned. I do wish I had just waited, saved, and moved into my own apartment in the end, but whatever. Things with hubby are severely lacking right now, so it might end up me getting my own for a while anyway...

My plan for tomorrow (I say tomorrow as I count it as a different day when I get back up) is to have two bananas and two yogurt cups before leaving for work. For my "lunch" it'll be some sliced cucumber, peppers, baby carrots, one thing of cottage cheese, and some homemade hummus. It sounds like a lot, but I bring the peppers and most of the carrots upstairs to my desk to snack on during my shift, as we're allowed sliced veggies, fruits, etc. at our desks. I also need to stop having junk to be snacking on all night.

So, I have a private Facebook account for ED stuff and friends and there's a girl on there I've talked to on and off that lives here in Kingston. We're suppose to meet up for a coffee and a walk sometime relatively soon and I'm half excited half nervous. I'm excited cuz if she's for real, she's 20yrs old and I could finally have a real life ana and possibly workout buddy. I'm half nervous cuz you never know what creeps could be out there, since none of us really put real pics of ourselves up there, but at the same time I'm 26yrs old and not a stupid kid anymore. We'll meet up at one of the million and one Tim Horton's or something, so not alone and shit just in case. Hopefully she's cool and we could hang out and workout and shit together. I just hope by next pay (the 8th as this one is gunna be horrible) I can pay off my Mastercard and join the Y.

Well, once again rambled nicely. Don't worry, I won't be able to do this every night lol Probably heading to bed in an hour or so, so good night lovelies. Stay strong!